Hola mis amigos...

well i know its not november anymore, but i thought id continue the blogginess anyways. so game plan: HESI, physical assessment, pathophysiology, die for a day or 2, make stuff to impress matts parents, take care of the invalid, 12 hour drive with the kids (shorter if i drive- haha), THE MOST RIDICULOUS CHRISTMAS EVER!!!!!!!
 
oh yeah and the finals thing... that requires studying which up until this moment i have procrastinated on. so here i go... ready, break!

my favorite quote about friends is this: "good friends are like wedgies, they are intimately close, they know your inner self, and it feels great when you pick out a good one"- emily elizabeth gave me that wonderful card in like middle school and its a favorite.

but seriously i love my friends. when i get off track, they put me back on. when i need encouragement, theyre there and keep me inline. when i need advice, they have it. when i need to vent, they listen. i have so many different ones and they each play a critical part in my life. i would be lost and probably not here without my friends. i am so very blessed! hey without my friend chelle, i wouldnt be blogging... i dunno if thats good or bad i hope im not boring yall too much. anyways, they are essential and i love them!

so today was so much fun! other than having to deal with a teacher who can only be accurately described as to be on a perpetual powertrip and therefore bitchy, it was wonderful! i spent several hilarious hours shopping with anne and leslie, who by the way are a hoot and i ended up getting a little mermaid plate, washcloth and goblet type cup with a straw and a mini snowglobe at the bottom- im the best aunt ever!!! i so enjoy getting my niece the little fun stuff that her mom would never buy and that she will beg to eat off of every time and will end up driving sara nuts! hahahahha arent i the best?

anyways, then did some even more fun shopping with chelle and becky. and i must say that whenever we do this shopping again, i am definitely bringing chelle. she looks out for you and she wont stop til you get it right. i love my roomies, they are wonderful and it has been so awesome living with them this year. shopping made me realize that i still have a long way to go. i thought in my mind that i was ready for something that im really not ready for. and im kind of disappointed because i know its true but its something that ive wanted. just because your mind knows something doesnt necessarily mean that your heart will follow. so that was a little bit of a wake up call and bittersweet realization. but im very excited about our shopping trip and i cant wait to do more!

i dont know how to drive a stick. i hope to learn someday, but at the moment if you put me and a stick shift in the same car, we wouldnt get along. from what i understand you press the clutch to change gears and after getting the car in gear you slowly ease off the clutch and onto the accelerator. sometimes you get the unexperienced driver that grinds when changing gears and then stalls out. well thats me at the moment. i know what i need, but its not taking. im inbetween gears trying to go, but im grinding trying to get there, and then wehn i try to go, i hear the grinding and i forget and i feel like i need to start over. i say i dont know what it is, but i think i do. which is the most frustrating part. its like in romans wehn paul talkes about the things he doesnt want to do he does. well i know whats wrong with me but i dont. and im not sure that what i know is right.
i think im going to meditate on these verses:

come ye sinners, come and welcome
God's free bounty glorify
Jesus ready stands to save you
Filled with pity joined with power
he is able, he is able, he is willing doubt no more

come ye weary heavy laden
bruised and broken by the fall
if you tarry till youre better
you will never come at all
without money, without money, come to Jesus Christ and buy

planning is a funny thing. sometimes you plan too early or plan too late. like yesterday i planned too late to start studyign which is why i got a b on my exam. but today we are planning something much more fun that i will not disclose. we are preplanning but not really cuz it takes a while to plan it. its just funny cuz the main planner is shy about planning. anywho, its funny how you can plan to do stuff and then they totally change in an instant. with planning comes headaches and excitement. i have a feeling that in this planning there will be tons of stress and giddiness and relief when its finally over. we'll see!

thanks just really seems like an overused word especially this time of year. blessings are things we should appreciate every day. the amazing blessing of relationships and love that grows and grwos throughout the years. i love my family and i love my friends... i know i say that alot, but it is true. God has amazingly blessed me with more than i can ever imagine. seeing the love that my parents have after almost thirty years is wonderful. even though theirs is not a perfect marriage by any means, i want my husband love me like that-  tearing up when he sees my delight with a gift that he has given me- my parents are wonderful and amazing people. i know they cause great frustration sometimes, but i love them so much and will always feel and know and share the love that they have shared with one another and with me and my siblings. praise the Lord for such blessings. of course his is the ultimate demonstration of love in his dying for me and all sinners on the cross so that we may spend eternity with him. praise him for such a wonderful gift! and give thanks this season for it:)

humans are amazing beings... we are so complex and who we are is a compilation of millions of inputs from other people, personal experiences, and a million other things. a large source of influence is parents. its amazing what parents can put us thru but its even more amazing what parents were put thru in our position. ive always known my mother's relationship with her mother was bad at best. but i continue to learn more about it each day. every time i hear more about my mother's lifelong struggle with her mother i am amazed that she has turned out as well as she is. i know i have struggles with my relationship but it is nothing compared to what she went thru. and i have so much admiration for her. she is an amazing woman. i dont think ill ever know fully what she went thru growing up. but ill always admire and respect her for what she has worked thru. i love my mother and i pray that the Lord will give her peace in this difficult time

if you had asked me when i was born how long my first dating relationship would last, my guesstimation would have sounded remarkably like a screaming cry from having just traveled from my nice warm home down a slippery slide to the cold outside world. but if i had been able to talk, i still dont know what i would have been able to tell you.

i can tell you that i never dreamed that i would have dated the first man for ten months. this isnt just any man either, this is an amazing man that any woman would be priviledged to date. this is a man who will kick himself out even as i am begging like my 2.5 yr old niece for him not to leave because he knows that i need to study. and he is thinking of me rather than himself. this is a man who i could seriously go on and on about listing characteristics for days and sdays and never get tired of it. and even though this is the same man who i was so ticked at a few blogs ago, he is the man that i truly love with all my heart.

somehow, God has allowed us to share this amazing gift of a relationship and learn and grow with one another. every monthaversary (as i have termed them) we look at each other and say that it hasnt seemed that long but at the same time it feels like we've known each other longer. these months have been amazingly wonderful and amazginly challenging at the same time. i have grown in so many different areas of my life. it is truly a blessing to be here and realize that i may only date one man ever in my life. what a wonderful thought....

and since this is the man who kicked himself out tonite so i could study i am actually going to study so he can stay tomorrow nite for a little longer... but i just wanted to share with you all that the last ten months have been the best ones of my life!

contrary to the commercial slogan, its not folgers in your cup, its being woken up by the one you love. since that wont happen for a few more years, it was very special this morning when i did get woken up by my love.

today was a wonderful day!!! i was woken up by my love and we fixed breakfast together. this morning we had a roomie and boyfriend breakfast which was too fun!!! we all has such a blast eating our chocolate chip pancakes and wonderful eggs made by chelle. then my love and i went to a friends apt to watch tennessee rout vandy. then we came back and took a wonderful nap- it was oh so relaxing!!!! then we went to a good friend's birthday party where the girls dominated in battle of the sexes:) and we wrapped it up with a lovely dinner at chilis... i got a total of no studying done today, but it was way more than worth it!!!! so today was one of the best days ive had in a long while:)

Nov06

C- is for the crispness that washing brings
L- is for the lovely feeling that comes with crawling into them
E- is for the excitement of not sleeping in body soil anymore
A- is for the amazing roomie who brought me my warm topsheet that i forgot to put in the dryer
N- is for nestling in the warmth of them just out of the dryer
S- is for the smell of gain with a touch of softness
H- is for a home with my own a washer and dryer
E- is for the ease of being able to wash them in my own washer and dryer
E- is for the every other week occurance of this phenomenon
T- is for the tidiness of my room that usually comes with washing the sheets
S- is for someday when i can get in them with the one i love

thanks to chelle and sam for this idea:)