stalling

i dont know how to drive a stick. i hope to learn someday, but at the moment if you put me and a stick shift in the same car, we wouldnt get along. from what i understand you press the clutch to change gears and after getting the car in gear you slowly ease off the clutch and onto the accelerator. sometimes you get the unexperienced driver that grinds when changing gears and then stalls out. well thats me at the moment. i know what i need, but its not taking. im inbetween gears trying to go, but im grinding trying to get there, and then wehn i try to go, i hear the grinding and i forget and i feel like i need to start over. i say i dont know what it is, but i think i do. which is the most frustrating part. its like in romans wehn paul talkes about the things he doesnt want to do he does. well i know whats wrong with me but i dont. and im not sure that what i know is right.
i think im going to meditate on these verses:

come ye sinners, come and welcome
God's free bounty glorify
Jesus ready stands to save you
Filled with pity joined with power
he is able, he is able, he is willing doubt no more

come ye weary heavy laden
bruised and broken by the fall
if you tarry till youre better
you will never come at all
without money, without money, come to Jesus Christ and buy